Nico Soleil 19 Oct 20159:15 PM Maxines Blog As I hit the final 4 week mark I can almost hear my body breathe a sigh of relief. The hardest part is behind me. I can see the forest for the trees. I am not saying this has been a difficult journey, but I am not saying it has been easy either. The week before last I had a wee health scare. I left the doctor believing I had thyroid cancer after she discovered a 3 x 4.5cm lump in my thyroid. THREE TIMES FOUR POINT 4 CENTRIMETRES. That is no small lump. I was urged to go and get a ultrasound ASAP. I can tell you though, I didn't needed pushing. "No appointments until next week". The worst thing you can hear when you desperately seek answers... Not one to give in, I waited a few hours and called back. LUCK! An appointment had opened up for the very next afternoon. A quick discussion with my manager and I was all booked in Some relief! During the commute home I let Dr Google get the better of me. I researched all different scenarios and the one thing that concerned me the most (obviously the thought of having cancer was my number 1 fear) was how, if my thyroid was dysfunctional, it would affect my training and my ability to lose weight. I had just committed 6+ long and hard weeks to a rigorous training regime and diet. I had noticed that, by the end of the 6th week, didn't offer any significant or obvious changes to my fat loss. If anything, my legs appeared more fatty and I wasn't shifting any weight that week and I had been experiences serious fatigue for no real reason.... I sunk in to myself for the next 24 hours biding my time until the appointment with the radiologist..... After my scan revealed the lump was most likely NOT cancer and appeared to be inflammation, I was still left with this looming doubt of what type of thyroid imbalance I was suffering. Is it overactive or underactive? Am I go to lose weight easily or struggle to lose weight. The worst case scenario was putting on weight with little or no affect on this from exercise and diet. This didn't sit well with me. I have worked so hard. I didn't want all my effort to come unstuck by an autoimmune function. I couldn't believe my luck. I have been suffering EXTREME exhaustion which frustrates me. The MaxinesXT-Burn has really been helping alleviate this as much as possible. I can still see fat in my legs that isn't shifting as fast as I feel it should be. This is demotivating. I wont have an official diagnose until this challenge is all over. I have been tempted to give up wondering why I should even bother if I am not going to get the results with this silly condition. But I didn't. I kept training. This week I had a massive stack while running. I was so tired and a 1 metre obstacle I had been hurdling jumping all weekend became a trip hazard at 10cms because I was just way too tired. I bruised my knee, something in my hip flexer snapped and I twisted my arm and am suffering muscle bruising. Is this a sign? A sign to give up? My body feels so tired. Which kinda really sucks as fitness normal makes me feel on top of the world. I have never done a challenge like this. When I signed up it was because I have quit my commitment so many times. I wanted to see this to the end. Stupid non-cooperative thyroid. DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HAVE PUT INTO THIS? This weekend I was really considering stopping. True story. But I think about the people I have inspired in my journey and how they have looked up to me so tonight I said to myself: "You know what, you are not going to quit now. You are so close. You may not get in the top 10, or even top 50 but at least you can say you have finished. It's an achievement. 3 more weeks girl, just keep going". I didn't have anyone arranged tonight to take my photo for before the cut off time. I didn't think I was going to continue until I got home. It isn't the best quality but it shows I have given it my best. And albeit how tired I am feeling, I feel pretty good to get this far. THREE MORE WEEKS TO GO. I AM GOING TO MAKE IT THREE DAMN GOOD ONES!